Random musings!

Its been ages since I've had any inspiration to write anything on here, things have been so stressful! I'm going through another "why am I here" phase, so apologies to anyone who gets in the way at the wrong time!

This morning after CU I went for coffee with a friend, and was discussing with her what I should do. We both agreed that God definately intended me to be here at Trinity in the first place. So, she said, I should stay here until He tells me otherwise. Even if that sometimes isn't comfortable. I said what if these contant trials were God saying it was time to move on...she said that when God calls us to do something else He gives us peace in that decision - and I have everything but peace at the moment! She reminded me of the Israelites in the old testament - God had a long term destination for them but while he was taking them there he often told them to stop and wait in one place for a while until it was time for them to move on to the next stage.

May the Lord answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you. May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the Lord grant all your requests. Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm. Psalm 20

Look at the nations and watch—and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told Habakkuk1:5

For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay Habakkuk 2:3

The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights Habakkuk 3:19

(Three guesses which bit of the Bible I read last night!)

This morning I was reading a book called "What a wonderful world - an anthology of joy" in the hope that it might inspire me. It did, a few different things stuck out when I came accross them...mainly this poem by an unknown 19th century soldier...

I asked God for strength that I might achieve;

I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for help that I might do greater things;

I was given infirmity that I might do better things.

I asked for riches that I might be happy;

I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked for power that I might have the praise of others;

I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;

I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for - but everything I'd hoped for.

My unspoken prayers were answered.

I am among all men most richly blessed!